My Silent Internal Screams
by Elna
(Randburg, South Africa)
The Beauty and my beast
I hear them all the time...my silent screams in the depths of my mind!
No one else hearing them?? No I didn't think so as they are silent! My growing anger, my bitterness, my loneliness, my immense frustration, my daily fight to survive ME!! These internal screams comes from frustration, fighting the biggest losing battle against my worst enemy ever - ME!! The sweet, gentle, soft-hearted, innocent child versus the wild, untamed, ruthless, fearce Tigress!! No gentleness, no kindness, no thought, no feelings, no emotions spared, the battle just BREAKS OUT at the most unplanned and surprising moments.... it is vicious, it is merciless, it is blood-chilling, it is unforgivably abusive and violent yet it is wordless, it is calm, it is pasient and sweet, it is passionate and thoughtful - it is ME!!
